I’m on the Other Side, well the other side of doing 19.5 as opposed to not doing 19.5. Mind you I feel so incredibly destroyed that I could well be on the real other side and I’m blogging in Eternity. This can’t be eternity I’m too sore to be in eternity, is that a Crossfitter’s Hell, we’re just sore for ever when we die and a Crossfitter’s Heaven is a new PB every day?
The workout was 33 27 21 15 9 thrusters and jumping pull ups. I had seen people do the workout on Friday night and it didn’t look pretty. I saw Tia Claire Toomey do the workout and she looked like it was taxing. It’s one thing to rock up and do a workout with no prior knowledge, it’s another thing to rock up when you know the workout is going to be horrendous.
The first time I had chemo I was anxious but I had no idea how bad it would be. I had to show up time after time knowing how bad it would be after that and it’s a mind fuck. With hindsight I probably shouldn’t have looked at 19.5 before I leaped.
Last night I knew that if I did 19.5 I would achieve my goal of doing every workout and not spitting the dummy. No part of me wanted to do the workout I just wanted to reach my goal. It did occur to me that I could have done one or two reps and said hey I’ve done 19.5 but that isn’t really the spirit of the thing is it?
So I rocked up to the gym feeling like a woman condemned and thinking I’m bloody well blogging this afterwards. This is going to be one of those “do you remember 19.5? Yeah it’s as hard as that was” workouts. You don’t want to miss those.
My super power is to do slow things for a long time as soon as I try to go fast bad things happen. There was so much to do in 19.5 and I tried to move fast but it fast is not in my nature and to try and go fast for twenty minutes was just hell. I’ve never done a competition so I can tell you I never work harder than in the Open workouts. 19.5 kicked my butt. It was bad, bad, bad.
I asked my PT to use my sessions for the Open and I was very interested in his strategies to keep me moving. First he goes through all of the people I admire, would Tia be stopping Trish? Would Paula be stopping? (she’s from my gym she is a beast). Today he resorted to, do you see anybody else stopping? And I thought no unfortunately no I don’t. It was worth it getting him to judge me, for the wod specific warm ups, the tips on how to do the WODs efficiently and just the ability to keep at me so I didn’t stop.
I’ve said it a million times but Crossfit is a mind game. I don’t know why I found this workout so horrific, the weight wasn’t too heavy, jumping pull ups was fine, I think it was my cardio that killed me. I think I just didn’t have the stamina to keep going. That’s obviously something I need to work on.
With all the bitching I’ve done about this workout I keep coming back to, Crossfit will push you further than any discipline I’ve tried. You will accomplish things you never thought you could do. It’s quite amazing.
I was thinking perhaps the blog should just be I did it I did it repeated for a page, that’s kind of how I feel.
I’m proud of myself for doing this. I said I was going to do every workout and not spit the dummy and some I even did RX. When life gets sucky I can draw on these accomplishments and say hey do you remember how bad 19.5 was and you still did it, so how bad is this thing?
Thank you for reading catch you next time.